Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Really wish i could..
If only someone could unbreak my heart,
come relieve my pain
somehow i wish upon the star
and make all the memories go away.
I guess it's time...
P/S: Those words that came out from your mouth, are way too harsh for me to take..
It might not mean anything to you but at least to me, it does.
('v') 心中的遺憾*
10:56 PM
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
MUTUAL TRUST?
You made me realised, we had NONE!
Or should i put it this way:
You have my trust, ALWAYS -- be it now or in future
But you've NEVER trusted me before, not a tiny weeny bit right from the start!
All these while, i've been trying my best with all i could.
But if it's true that all you could sense are just only what you meant by WORDS,
I seriously admit defeat, i'm letting go..
Tried once, tried twice, not being appreciated.
And, it goes the same for countless time..
('v') 心中的遺憾*
2:25 AM
Sunday, April 25, 2010
DefeatedByLove
I'M REALLY WEARING OUT!
..Andd, on the verge of giving up seriously.
All the burdens and stress i'm facing,
are too much for me to bear, way too muchhhhh laaaaa!
I don't want to dwell on it anymore,
Neither do i care -- let me leave peacefully, will you?
:(('v') 心中的遺憾*
2:21 AM
Saturday, April 24, 2010
I want to run and hide away now.
then i realized, i have nowhere else to go ;
Cause i gave it all up, just to be with you..
how badly i miss those days...
to find myself in your arms, and the kisses on my forehead when i'm still asleep.
...and, receiving surprises that melts my heart ♥
I really don't understand, what causes the changes?
Sighs*
All i ever wanted was just a simple relationship that could last ;
Somebody who can be there when i needed someone to talk to,
Somebody who won't pretend, not afraid to say the way he feel about me,
Somebody who understands how i feel,
Somebody who can keep me real and somebody who i can trust.
Till then.
If you ever, ever thought of how i feel.
But you never once did..
('v') 心中的遺憾*
2:19 AM
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Why do tears always come at night?
IHATEITIHATEITIHATEITIHATEITIHATEIT
IHATEITIHATEITIHATEITIHATEIT
IHATEITIHATEITIHATEIT
IHATEITIHATEIT
IHATEIT! ('v') 心中的遺憾*
2:59 AM
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
I came to realise i don't understand myself at all.
I'm losing self esteem.
我从来没想到, 会有这样的结果
成为了彼此的过客
是爱的太少
还是要求的太多 ('v') 心中的遺憾*
2:58 AM
Monday, April 19, 2010
Malaysia for dinner with Buddy and Kenneth
and headed home aftermath.
***
I wish, i could find a way not to cry,
as time goes by seriously..('v') 心中的遺憾*
2:59 AM
Sunday, April 18, 2010
One thing that i can never deny..
This was us, but where are we now?
We've fallen out so bad, drifted so far,
not as one anymore.
Tell me why,
Why do i still get upset when i see you upset?
Why am i heartbroken when i saw what was written on your facebook?
I know why, and the reason behind it.
Cause no matter what happens,
YOU'RE STILLL MY BEST FRIEND!
P/S: You would have made the first move, if you ever cherished it.
I've been waiting all these while..
('v') 心中的遺憾*
8:38 PM
Thursday, April 15, 2010
FML 
I hate it when people accuse me with stuffs that i've never done before.
I hate it when people accuse me like I'm prejudiced or snobbish when I'm actually upset over something.
I hate it when people take my existence for granted.
I hate it when I'm down and still have to explain why I haven't been answering/replying calls/msges over and over again.
I hate it when people asked me about my personal stuffs to even the smallest details when I need some space and heartsease.
I HATE IT when I have to fucking compromise to everybody.
I really don't understand,
why would you choose to listen to what others say
rather than believing me?
You said i disappoint you, once again ;
I'm disappointed for the reasons that disappoints you.
('v') 心中的遺憾*
1:23 AM
Monday, April 12, 2010
Just when i thought things are turning for the better...
When you popped that question out of the blue,
you left me speechless.
I could feel the pain in my heart
and tears forcing their way out of my eyes..
BUT WHY?!
I really don't understand..
What causes the changes seriously?
Or was it meant to be a dream right from the start?
At least, a sweet dream....
Tell me, it wasn't true.
Will you?
Sighs*('v') 心中的遺憾*
1:22 AM
Sunday, April 11, 2010
When i'm all alone feeling down with nowhere to go,
totally no idea who could i turn to..
You cheer me up :)
You stay right besides of me, just like how you did in the past..
♥♥♥
('v') 心中的遺憾*
8:27 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Today, the day i looked forward to..
Yet, everything was ruined by my own hands!
How nice uh?!
It wasn't your fault, I shouldn't have returned right from the start.
My tears won't blame you -- It's just words that my heart uses to explain.
I'm Sorry...
*********
MeToYou:
I'll remember you, and baby that's forever true.
You're the one that i'll always miss, never thought it would feel like this.
I'll be there for you, no matter what you're goin' through.
In my heart you'll always be, forever baby,
I'll remember you.
Dear god,
please make sure he's fine and nothing major will happen to him.
Please take care of him since i can't be by his side..
('v') 心中的遺憾*
9:19 AM
Friday, April 9, 2010
I HATE MYSELF!
I can't accept the fact that you walked out of my life just like that.
I never knew i could get hurt like this.
I wish, i could find a way not to cry
as time goes by..
Sighs*
I'm disappointed in myself
and i don't like the way i am feeling now!
I've lost it..
Some days she laughs ; Some days she sigh
..But always with a grin
Some days she talks ; Some days she cries
..About her thoughts within
Life turns away from her, leaves her alone ;
With no one to turns to, nowhere to go
Thus, she's walking down the path aimlessly..('v') 心中的遺憾*
4:15 AM
Thursday, April 8, 2010
What's the meaning of friends?
To be exact, True friends.
A person whom one trust or reply?
A person whom one can get along with?
A person whom one likes?
I've always been frank and honest towards those that i cherish.
And i believe, i did play my part as a friend well.
Yet for i-don't-know what reasons,
I'm always the one at the losing end --
Being taken granted or disappointments occured.
Now i know, what people meant by this:
"Always believe the new replaces the old ones"
Thus, i'll never hold the thought that things would last forever.
Once bitten, twice shy.
('v') 心中的遺憾*
1:21 AM
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Finally collected after so longgggg..
Now, should i go for a short getaway as planned or ...?
I couldn't make up my mind... ('v') 心中的遺憾*
1:22 AM
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Reminiscences ♥
The you that i knew, was somewhat different.
I still remember the first day we met,
how we gradually became closer.
Perhaps it was meant to be, we're meant to be..
Thinking back,
how nostalgic it is and ironic it is now by looking how things ended up.
If we had a choice,
would you have taken a different route?
Never will i, even if it means facing the same ending we're having now..
It was once so beautiful,
yet leaving everything unfold for now.
Happy days are so short lived!
('v') 心中的遺憾*
9:02 AM
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Once again,
Disappointment arrives..
...But, i choose to hang on!
Waiting silently, seeing the time pass by yet there's nothing i can do ;
Looking forward to your text, hoping for the impossible.
And, i've got nothing out of you :(
Right at this moment, I'm wondering:
"Are you building me up, just to bring me down?"('v') 心中的遺憾*
1:19 AM
Friday, April 2, 2010
Note 
I'm sorry to make you cry during our heart-to-heart talk.
I didn't do it intentionally, you know it.
And also, thanks for understanding the situation i'm having right now.
Bear in mind, i've never lost trust you.
There are times i chose to keep everything to myself
not because i don't trust you.
I just don't want to be a burden to those people around me
and bother them to help me with my stuffs etc.
I would rather suffer it alone.
With ♥,
Lings
('v') 心中的遺憾*
2:03 AM
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