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Monday, May 26, 2008



26 May 2008
Every night at this point of time,
i would missed you BADLY.
I wanted to tell you how terrible and upset i feel within me
but i can't..
You're no longer here for me anymore
Even my words doesn't seems to capture your attention.
Now then i realised,
our bond was actually so weak which i thought it was that strong.
I didn't expect it would end so fast..


I really miss you.
I miss every part of us.
The way we hold our hand ;
When you gave me a surprise on Valentine's Day with flowers ;
When we went for our first dinner and movies ;
When you kissed me Goodnight and hugging me to sleep ;
When you sms-ed me all the sweet messages...
You always remember i would skipped my meals without you by my side
andd.. you never failed to remind with a phone call whenever you're in camp.
How i wish.. i'm able to hug you tightly in my arms now.
No matter what i've said and tried,
I just can't make you love me more..
What have i done to make you loathe me so much?


After that day, everything's CHANGED.
It's too sudden.
I'm just like a dead walking zombie on the streets
wandering aimlessly with no sense of direction at all!
I can even feel the pain when i'm breathing.
I wish you're here..
Things could be so different with you around.
Memories flashes through my mind again and again..
It seems to be more clearer and tougher for me to move on
Without you by my side now,
I've no motivations in doing anything.


I used to pass my days by working
and looking forward to the day that you're booking out
but now, i don't know what am i going to do
for the rest of the days ahead of me.
I don't even dare to imagine..


I just can't accept the fact that you just left me like that.
Not even leaving a word or a reason
I've already made you part of my life,
just like what you used to tell me..
(pls don't leave me, i really love you alot. muacks)
yet all i've got is a pack of fcuking lies!


i couldn't believe my eyes that
you could actually forget everything in such a short period
when you told me that you love me alot
and being in love with another girl.


i'm really wondering..
how much is the "ALOT" of yours?
or is it only meant to be a lie/sweet talk?


I remembered i felt so blessed having you
and i would go around telling all my friends that..

* I feel so loved now
* I've got myself a bf who loves me, dotes on me and giving me all i ever wanted

Though at times we do have quarrels
but these makes us even stronger then before.
I'm soo proud to say i've a wonderful boyfriend now!
Thanks God. :)


But to my disappointment,
i'm wrong in my judgement.
It's just packs of lies formed by you.
Everything's just a dream..
The sweetest dream i ever had
andd.. it's given by you.



Pls don't wake me up and let me leave..


How do i live without you,
I want to know.
How do i breathe without you,
If you ever go..
How do i ever, ever survive?
How do i, how do i,
Oh.. how do i liveee..


Bits and pieces of memories,
You left me scarred.
I couldn't forget you, my love.


('v') 心中的遺憾* 10:31 AM