Where Rainbows End *

28 April 2010

2010-04-28T22:56:00.000-07:00

Really wish i could..

If only someone could unbreak my heart,
come relieve my pain

somehow i wish upon the star
and make all the memories go away.
I guess it's time...

P/S: Those words that came out from your mouth, are way too harsh for me to take..
It might not mean anything to you but at least to me, it does.

27 April 2010

2010-04-27T02:25:00.000-07:00

MUTUAL TRUST?
You made me realised, we had NONE!

Or should i put it this way:

You have my trust, ALWAYS -- be it now or in future
But you've NEVER trusted me before, not a tiny weeny bit right from the start!

All these while, i've been trying my best with all i could.
But if it's true that all you could sense are just only what you meant by WORDS,
I seriously admit defeat, i'm letting go..

Tried once, tried twice, not being appreciated.
And, it goes the same for countless time..

25 April 2010

2010-04-25T02:21:00.000-07:00

DefeatedByLove

I'M REALLY WEARING OUT!
..Andd, on the verge of giving up seriously.

All the burdens and stress i'm facing,
are too much for me to bear, way too muchhhhh laaaaa!
I don't want to dwell on it anymore,
Neither do i care -- let me leave peacefully, will you?

:(

24 April 2010

2010-04-24T02:19:00.000-07:00

I want to run and hide away now.
then i realized, i have nowhere else to go ;
Cause i gave it all up, just to be with you..

how badly i miss those days...
to find myself in your arms, and the kisses on my forehead when i'm still asleep.
...and, receiving surprises that melts my heart ♥

I really don't understand, what causes the changes?
Sighs*

All i ever wanted was just a simple relationship that could last ;
Somebody who can be there when i needed someone to talk to,
Somebody who won't pretend, not afraid to say the way he feel about me,
Somebody who understands how i feel,
Somebody who can keep me real and somebody who i can trust.

Till then.

If you ever, ever thought of how i feel.
But you never once did..

21 April 2010

2010-04-21T02:59:00.000-07:00

Why do tears always come at night?

IHATEITIHATEITIHATEITIHATEITIHATEIT
IHATEITIHATEITIHATEITIHATEIT
IHATEITIHATEITIHATEIT
IHATEITIHATEIT
IHATEIT!

20 April 2010

2010-04-20T02:58:00.000-07:00

I came to realise i don't understand myself at all.
I'm losing self esteem.

我从来没想到, 会有这样的结果
成为了彼此的过客
是爱的太少
还是要求的太多

19 April 2010

2010-04-19T02:59:00.000-07:00

Malaysia for dinner with Buddy and Kenneth
and headed home aftermath.

***

I wish, i could find a way not to cry,
as time goes by seriously..

18 April 2010

2010-04-18T20:38:00.001-07:00

One thing that i can never deny..

~~This was us, but where are we now?~~

We've fallen out so bad, drifted so far,
not as one anymore.

Tell me why,
Why do i still get upset when i see you upset?
Why am i heartbroken when i saw what was written on your facebook?

I know why, and the reason behind it.
Cause no matter what happens,
YOU'RE STILLL MY BEST FRIEND!

P/S: You would have made the first move, if you ever cherished it.
I've been waiting all these while..

15 April 2010

2010-04-15T01:23:00.001-07:00

FML

I hate it when people accuse me with stuffs that i've never done before.
I hate it when people accuse me like I'm prejudiced or snobbish when I'm actually upset over something.
I hate it when people take my existence for granted.
I hate it when I'm down and still have to explain why I haven't been answering/replying calls/msges over and over again.
I hate it when people asked me about my personal stuffs to even the smallest details when I need some space and heartsease.
I HATE IT when I have to fucking compromise to everybody.

I really don't understand,
why would you choose to listen to what others say
rather than believing me?

You said i disappoint you, once again ;
I'm disappointed for the reasons that disappoints you.

14 April 2010

2010-04-14T01:24:00.000-07:00

Bugis for a walk right after my work with Kok Wei & Matthias.
And, they suggested having steamboat for dinner!

Didn't have much appetite
thus, i sat there camwhoring while the both of them continue eating.. :)

aaaaaanndddddddd...
Landed myself at De Suite for no reason. -.-"
All thanks to Kok Wei!

12 April 2010

2010-04-12T01:22:00.000-07:00

Just when i thought things are turning for the better...

When you popped that question out of the blue,
you left me speechless.

I could feel the pain in my heart
and tears forcing their way out of my eyes..

BUT WHY?!
I really don't understand..
What causes the changes seriously?

Or was it meant to be a dream right from the start?
At least, a sweet dream....

Tell me, it wasn't true.
Will you?

Sighs*

11 April 2010

2010-04-11T20:27:00.001-07:00

When i'm all alone feeling down with nowhere to go,
totally no idea who could i turn to..

You cheer me up :)
You stay right besides of me, just like how you did in the past..

♥♥♥

10 April 2010

2010-04-10T09:19:00.000-07:00

Today, the day i looked forward to..
Yet, everything was ruined by my own hands!
How nice uh?!

It wasn't your fault, I shouldn't have returned right from the start.
My tears won't blame you -- It's just words that my heart uses to explain.
I'm Sorry...

*********

MeToYou:

I'll remember you, and baby that's forever true.
You're the one that i'll always miss, never thought it would feel like this.
I'll be there for you, no matter what you're goin' through.
In my heart you'll always be, forever baby,
I'll remember you.

Dear god,
please make sure he's fine and nothing major will happen to him.
Please take care of him since i can't be by his side..

09 April 2010

2010-04-09T04:15:00.000-07:00

I HATE MYSELF!
I can't accept the fact that you walked out of my life just like that.

I never knew i could get hurt like this.
I wish, i could find a way not to cry
as time goes by..
Sighs*

I'm disappointed in myself
and i don't like the way i am feeling now!
I've lost it..

Some days she laughs ; Some days she sigh
..But always with a grin
Some days she talks ; Some days she cries
..About her thoughts within

Life turns away from her, leaves her alone ;
With no one to turns to, nowhere to go
Thus, she's walking down the path aimlessly..

08 April 2010

2010-04-08T01:21:00.000-07:00

What's the meaning of friends?
To be exact, True friends.

A person whom one trust or reply?
A person whom one can get along with?
A person whom one likes?

I've always been frank and honest towards those that i cherish.
And i believe, i did play my part as a friend well.

Yet for i-don't-know what reasons,
I'm always the one at the losing end --
Being taken granted or disappointments occured.

Now i know, what people meant by this:
"Always believe the new replaces the old ones"
Thus, i'll never hold the thought that things would last forever.

Once bitten, twice shy.

07 April 2010

2010-04-07T01:22:00.000-07:00

Finally collected after so longgggg..
Now, should i go for a short getaway as planned or ...?

I couldn't make up my mind...

04 April 2010

2010-04-04T09:02:00.000-07:00

Reminiscences ♥

The you that i knew, was somewhat different.
I still remember the first day we met,
how we gradually became closer.
Perhaps it was meant to be, we're meant to be..

Thinking back,
how nostalgic it is and ironic it is now by looking how things ended up.
If we had a choice,
would you have taken a different route?
Never will i, even if it means facing the same ending we're having now..

It was once so beautiful,
yet leaving everything unfold for now.
Happy days are so short lived!

03 April 2010 (Disappointed)

2010-04-03T01:19:00.000-07:00

Once again,
Disappointment arrives..

...But, i choose to hang on!

Waiting silently, seeing the time pass by yet there's nothing i can do ;
Looking forward to your text, hoping for the impossible.
And, i've got nothing out of you :(

Right at this moment, I'm wondering:
"Are you building me up, just to bring me down?"

02 April 2010

2010-04-02T02:03:00.000-07:00

Note

I'm sorry to make you cry during our heart-to-heart talk.
I didn't do it intentionally, you know it.
And also, thanks for understanding the situation i'm having right now.

Bear in mind, i've never lost trust you.
There are times i chose to keep everything to myself
not because i don't trust you.
I just don't want to be a burden to those people around me
and bother them to help me with my stuffs etc.
I would rather suffer it alone.

With ♥,
Lings

31 March 2010

2010-03-31T03:21:00.000-07:00

Assurance?

I only fight for things, that's worth fighting for.
But this time, i'm not too sure..

30 March 2010 (Wish granted)

2010-03-30T01:19:00.000-07:00

Somehow, somewhere,
someone granted me something which i longed for..
&& it came true tonight! :D

To be updated again..

26 March 2010

2010-03-26T03:20:00.000-07:00

I twist and turn my head,
the song plays repeatedly till i fall asleep -- Didnt know i'm crying silently..

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone..

***

Fill my heart with song and let me sing forever more..
You are all I long for, all I worship and adore
In other words, please be true ;
I Love You, ❤

24 March 2010

2010-03-25T23:31:00.001-07:00

Through the rain..

Don't know what is down this road
I'm just walking..
Trying to see throught the rain coming down

P/S: You've got ways with words, you got me smiling even when it hurts..

23 March 2011 (Hypocrite)

2010-03-23T22:27:00.001-07:00

EXPOSED!

CLAPS*

You did acted well earlier on seriously..
But sad to say, the story made up by you, wasn't convincing at all.
Or else, i might have fallen into your trap?

Stop wasting your time to act innocent -- It's not going to work on me!

By all means,
push all the blames on your sister if you thinks i buy your story yay?
I can't be bothered anyway :)

Somehow,
i do pity her for having such a shameless sister like you ;
Someone who dares to do but don'thave the guts to admit at all.
I really look down on you!

22 March 2010

2010-03-22T02:57:00.000-07:00

PAUSED *

Today is the lousiest day of my life, I swear!
Tears flow down just like the river
and starts venting all my unhappiness on my hand -- Numbed.

Seriously, I'm UTTERLY disappointed with you!

The truth hurts,
and it hurts even more on the second time.
I'm completely lost right now,
and i could no longer decide to believe or not?

I need some time to heal,
I need some time to build up this wall of trust again..

You can see that I’m hurt inside, and i'm dying inside because of you.
The knife gleams with my blood and the rope gets tighter around my neck ;
I hate this part but my heart says i should..

I'm losing my mind and I'm lost for words -- These words shall remain unsaid.

You put me through all these tortures to bear all the pain and misery alone,
I won't show my heartbroken tears, Never again!

*********

P/S:
I'm not the one you need.
Close your eyes and forget me
I've completely lost, there's nothing i can do anymore..

See my scars that spell your name, D

19 March 2010

2010-03-19T02:56:00.000-07:00

Everyone's preparing themselves to enjoy/ already enjoying themselves outside
yet i'm still stuck in the office doing OT at 9.30pm!
How nice..

On the other thought,
it doesn't makes any difference too since i'll be home alone apart from work.

Seriously, i'm begining to detest WEEKENDS!

Rewinded:
You're the reason,
for me to look forward to weekends excitedly.

18 March 2010

2010-03-18T01:06:00.000-07:00

Kbox @ Cine :)

Peiwen and Kok Wei came all the way down to my office
and waited for me to knock off before heading down to Town.
Sweet, isn't it? :)

Ion and Wisma for a walk
before heading down to Cine Kbox for singing session.

I'm so worn out
but i couldn't get myself to fall asleep..

Throughout the night,
These blue eyes just cry.

14 March 2010

2010-03-14T00:08:00.000-08:00

14th, Not Forgotten ❤

I thought you'd never go away ;
I thought we were at bay.
When i asked you to stay,
You agreed, isn't it?

All i wanted was your gentle touch.
Am i asking for too much?

11 March 2010

2010-03-11T23:56:00.000-08:00

IT Fair @ Suntec

What a day! -.-"

Firstly, iPhone die on me all of a sudden while i'm on my way to Suntec.
Then, play almost an hour of hide-and-seek with Kok Wei before we met each other.
&& IT Fair is already closing when we got up there!

Thus, a wasted trip made -- Credits to Kok Wei!
Reason: For being a NOOB in Suntec :X

Waited for Ken to knock off before heading for dinner
then Home Sweet Home. :)

08 March 2010

2010-03-08T09:22:00.000-08:00

MondayBlues~

Absent for work -- Overslept! :(
Thus, i slept through the whole afternoon since last night.
Thumbs Up!

Then decided to meet Peiwen for dinner since she's on leave.
&& Home Sweet Home

I've lost interest in everything.
No motivations, Nothing at all.
Lost.

07 March 2010

2010-03-07T09:00:00.000-08:00

Healthy Lifestyle :D

Tampines Mall to get iPhone,
then to Escape Theme Park @ Pasir Ris
and steamboat for dinner at Bugis

P/S: Thanks for the company and cheer me up. :)

06 March 2010

2010-03-06T09:20:00.000-08:00

I'm not saying there wasn't anything wrong,
I just didn't think you'd ever turn your back on me.

I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold,
I just didn't wanna let it get away from me.

Maybe, if i had just looked away that first night you came towards me,
everything would be different and my heart won't be breaking now..

03 march 2010

2010-03-03T12:26:00.000-08:00

Someone said:
"When the pieces doesn't fits at all,
there's no use in trying.."
Cos no matter how you compromise,
you'll still be taken for granted.

I'm always the one who disappoints you about everything.
Maybe I shouldn't have appear in your life at all?
At least you won't be feeling the way it is right now?
Or you could have been much happier?

I'm sorry if I hurt you, D.
And, you can never imagine the hurt that you've brought to me.
Even myself, couldn't describe the feelings at all.
Still, I've never thought it would hurts so much..

Things have changed and we're drifting apart.
Nothing will ever be the same if i'm the only one doing everything.
If only I could ever turn back time,
I'd want it to be the day we got to know each other
so I'll never make the same mistakes and understand you more.
I miss the "sweet caring" side of you..

PS: Would you still make the same decision, if I could turn back time?

02 March 2010

2010-03-02T12:54:00.001-08:00

You warmed my heart, ❤

01 march 2010

2010-03-02T12:54:00.000-08:00

You know when we fight and hang up, and you don't call back,
that's what hurts me the most and it makes me wonder ;

If we were to be fighting face to face,
would you just let me go when i walk away..?

24 Feb 2010

2010-02-24T14:49:00.000-08:00

Heart-Felt Feelings..

You're hurting me too much by not being bothered,
I'm nothing to you. :(

You're building me up, just to break me down..

22 Feb 2010

2010-02-22T02:07:00.000-08:00

Don't know why, but suddenly i felt so unsure and uncertain of your little love.
I doubt the importance of me in ur life that u've once said.
Prolly my assumptions were right,
i'm just one of the many in ur list whom you've already passed by..

我想我沒那麼堅強每個女孩其實一樣
渴望著愛情的好渴望被擁抱卻都害怕愛讓人受傷

21 Feb 2010

2010-02-21T01:39:00.000-08:00

Heartaches *

I've got so much i wanna say
But i'm lost for words.

I tried to understand what you meant, tried putting myself in your shoe and think
but have you ever put yourself in my shoe and think too?
Sighs*

Yes, i admit it's my fault this time round for not putting enough effort in it
and let you down.
But i'm trying right now, isn't it?

I feel tired too when i've seen nothing coming out from you

after putting in all the efforts.
The answer seems to be so negative
to the extend that i really felt like giving up at that moment.
Yet, i still hang on till the end.

It hurts alot to hear all the words you said.
You've got your point but i've got my point of view in the things i'm doing too.
Why can't you just let me explain and understand in my point of view?

You told me, it takes 2 hands to clap
but why am i the only one left doing everything all by myself?
Can't the both of us try our best and improve it together?

Sometimes i wonder,
Have you ever thought of what i want/ask for in this?
Do you really understand me that well to the extend that you know what i'm thinking?
Sighs*

D,
let's start afresh, shall we?

18 Feb 2010

2010-02-18T02:19:00.000-08:00

Love is never wanting to lose faith,
never wanting to give up,
and never truly moving on..

***

If only, you would voice out all the unhappiness in you
If only, I'm able to read you inside out
Things would never turn out in this awful state..
Sighs*

I'm sorry for all the disappointments that i've brought to you.
I've got no one but myself to blame,
for not understanding you more..

16 Feb 2010

2010-02-16T00:59:00.000-08:00

Insecured

You frightened me today,
due to the drastric change in you.

The feeling's undescrible.
Stranger is the name for us.

****

I might not know how much burden and stress you're having
but so long as you're willing to share it with me,
i'm willing to there, just right beside of you being your listening ear.

14 Feb 2010

2010-02-14T01:10:00.000-08:00

SweetSurprises * :D

He came forward with Haagen Daz Ice-cream cake
when i mentioned about i'm feeling hungry..
He did really shocked me with it.

It comes in a pair :)

Mine

His

Then, he melts my heart by surprising me with the AX watch
that i show him in the afternoon before heading out to Town and get my stuffs.
He could actually remember the design by just glancing through it for less than 5secs!
:)

Last but not least, he got someone to deliver 99 red roses to my doorstep
as early as 9.20am.
:D

He've got everything planned.
What's more can i ask for?

P/S: Thanks for making an effort to present me all these surprises despite how busy you're with your own stuffs. You did shocked me & i'm indeed lost for words. Everything seems to be like a sweet dream right at that moment ; I can never imagine that you would do all these just for me. You're just so sweet, D!

Lastly, YouMeltsMyHeart :)

09 Feb 2010

2010-02-09T01:19:00.000-08:00

Knowing the path ahead of me was a tough one,
yet i still chose to walk through it with you.. :)
Hopefully, things goes smoothlyyyyy

Decision made,

and hopefully i won't get disappointed again.
Let bygones be bygones and trust will be gained as time goes by.

01 Feb 2010

2010-02-01T00:56:00.000-08:00

A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb that explodes ;
Sometimes it's as quiet as a feather falling.
The most painful thing is, no one hears it except you..

16 Jan 2010

2010-01-16T23:39:00.000-08:00

Celebration for Eddy @ De Suite, Amoy Street

Town shopping since late afternoon
than headed down to Amoy Street for Eddy's celebration at night.
As usual, i'm late again. :)

They booked the VIP Room this time round:

Went off half way through
& it makes me feel worthwhile. :)

Oh, i'm so in love with my BIGBIGBIGGG DINOOOOOOO!

13 Jan 2010

2010-01-13T00:51:00.000-08:00

I'm contented i've a place in your heart ❤

10 Jan 2010

2010-01-10T00:31:00.000-08:00

Insecured ; Assure Me With Assurance ❤

09 Jan 2010

2010-01-09T22:50:00.000-08:00

Social House :D

Lost counts on how many days of insomnia!
&& MY EYEBAGS ARE GETTING FROM BAD TO WORST, I SWEAR.. :(

Social House was chosen for the day.

WeiLong came over to fetch me down & join the rest as planned. :)
Was supposed to meet the rest earlier but all thanks to my lazybones!
They're refusing to get down of the bed. -.-"
Thus, i went to get my stuffs prepared when it's already 10.30pm ?
WOOOOHOOOOO~

Okays, it was my first time there
&& it seems kinda fun! :D
Oh, I LOVE THE SOFA, it's so comfortable!

o.O" Small - Big ; Seems weird?

Chatree & WeiLong

Oh my, look at our eyesbags! -.-"

Headed down to Boat Quay after that
but we didn't went to any of the pubs for a drink.
Everyone seems to be sick of Boat Quay?
LOL!

Headed home straight after our supper.
It was a fun night though, :)

RandomThoughts:

I thought i would feel likewise to see you holding
someone else's hand instead of mine.
But things wasn't as bad as what i've thought.
Somehow, i felt that she's the one for you,
Someone who's more suitable to be with you than me..

On the other hand, the things she said kept lingering in my mind:
"Would a girl give up on the one she loves to someone that she doesn't even know?"
Sighs*

02 Jan 2010

2010-01-02T06:36:00.000-08:00

Waited for Ken & Co to knock off @ Sim Lim Square
then headed down to Social House for a drink :)

To our disappointment, it wasn't what we expected it to be.
It has become a Thai Disco instead of a club -.-"
&& there wasn't alot of tables at all.

One Word To Describe: BORING! :(

2hours of staying there, hoping that things would turn out well
but nothing changed at all.
Except for most of the people are leaving for somewhere else. -.-"
Nevertheless, we left that boring place too.

Some suggested going home and i headed down to Boat Quay as planned.
Joined WeiLong & Co for 2nd round. :)
But sad to say, WeiLong got so wasted & he vomitted thrice?

Guess what?!
The problem is, his self-entertainment cause him to get drunk.
None of them ask him to drink at all! -.-"

Home Sweet Home @ 5.20am

***

To Ken:

Thanks for being such a sweet buddy of mine to keep me accompanied.
No matter how busy or tired you're, you never fail to be here for me whenever i'm down.
I'm glad to have you, as a brother in my life..
Nevertheless, i'll be there for you when you needed someone as promised! :)

31 Dec 2009

2009-12-31T06:36:00.000-08:00

Countdown @ Shanghai Dolly :)

Headed down to Shanghai Dolly and met up with Ken & Co.
FUN IS ALL I COULD DESCRIBE, Thumbs up!

Left Shanghai Dolly early as Ken got so wasted.
&& i swear, this is the first time i see him in this state! -.-"
Hopefully, he'll be feeling better after he woke up.
Free from gastric pain & hangover! :)

Cabbed down to Boat Quay for 2nd round with Kok Wei & Co
but this time round, i drank just a few cups. :)

Home Sweet Home @ 10.15am -.-"

29 Dec 2009

2009-12-29T10:03:00.000-08:00

Eye Infection :(

Thus i ended up wearing specs to work..

TIME TO GO ON DIET!
I'm getting fatter & fatter. :(

27 Dec 2009

2009-12-27T10:03:00.000-08:00

:DD

Ken caught this Dino for me :D

I'm sooooo in loveeeee with itttttttttt!

26 Dec 2009

2009-12-26T10:02:00.000-08:00

Fun @ DeSuite, Amoy Street :)

Went over to Town with Kok Wei to get my bracelet altered
then cabbed down to Bq for awhile before headed down to Amoy Street for a drink. :)

Nick, Kok Wei & Me

Priscilla & Nick

Kok Wei & Priscilla

Kok Wei & Raymond

Nick & Kok Wei

Me & Raymond

Sister & Me :)

Home Sweet Home @ 4.20am

25 Dec 2009

2009-12-25T10:02:00.000-08:00

L4D2 @ Cine with Ken & Wei Qiang
then headed down to Power House with Xiao Long & Co. :)

Xmas present from Xiao Long :)

Kenny came over to fetch me
&& we went for L4D2 again!

I'm so addicted to it right now! :D

***

P/S: Thanks for getting me this bracelet knowing that i've lost it months ago. I'll take good care of it & never lose it like i've promised. :)

24 Dec 2009

2009-12-24T10:02:00.000-08:00

Xmas Celebration @ BQ! :)

Went over to Sim Lim Square to meet up with Ken
then headed down to Bq for a drink.
Nanny and the rest was there toooooo! :)

One word to describe: FUN! :D

Ken with his Xmas Present from me & Peiwen :)

Me & Nanny :)

Peiwen & Bebe

Dearest & Me :D

Me & Peiwen

Me & Nana

Darren & Bebe

Home Sweet Home @ 7.50am

22 Dec 2009

2009-12-22T03:39:00.000-08:00

FCUKFUCKFCUK!

Xmas approaching yet i don't feel excited at all.
My mind's all blank..
All it think of is "If only...."

Lonely, lonely Xmas...

21 Dec 2009

2009-12-21T04:27:00.001-08:00

I down with fever this time round
andd, i'm feeling like shit.

I lost all my motivations all of a sudden.
Not knowing what should i do next or what i want..
Sighs*
Seriously, i hate this kind of feelings!

Why do i reminisce our memories when you've got someone else?

20 Dec 2009

2009-12-20T03:32:00.000-08:00

Nanny says: He'll still think of the memories that we spent together
even though it's already in the past.

Is it true?!

19 Dec 2009

2009-12-19T15:35:00.000-08:00

Birthday Celebration @ Atlantis :)

Sim Lim Square to wait for Ken&Co to knock off
before heading down to Atlantis.

It's been such a long time since i drank
and it's indeed an enjoying night! :D

&& I WANT MOREEE OF ITTTTT!

Ended our night @ Club Nana
anddd, Kenny came over to fetch me homeee. :)

18 Dec 2009

2009-12-18T15:35:00.001-08:00

Chill out @ Kallang Leisure Park
then headed down to Grandlink for L4D2. :)

Overall: Thumbs up!

I'm falling in love with L4D2! :D

Mr Boonsterino

Me & Kenny

Home Sweet Home @ 7.15am
andddddd, i'm preparing for work..

P/S: I really don't know what i want at this moment.
I just need some time..

17 Dec 2009

2009-12-17T15:34:00.000-08:00

Had Zheng Fa Live Seafood & Steamboat as planned
with Ken & Wei Qiang. :)

Then headed down to Amber 21 for a drink...

Home Sweet Home @ 2.20am

14 Dec 2009

2009-12-14T15:57:00.001-08:00

Town for a walk with Peiwen
andd, got a Xmas present for Ken. :)

Isn't this cute?
Peiwen's so in love with this right now.

BOOOOO~
Peiwen got me my Big Strawberry Chup Chup Lollipop!
I'm such a happy girlllll.. :D

&& Kok Wei came over awhile before heading back to camp. :)

He stole my lollipopppppp! :(

***

P/S: You never fail to be here for me whenever i needed you.
You've never complained a single word at all and even kept quiet without asking a single question what's wrong with me.
Thanks for being here for me whenever i needed you and tried your best to cheer me ups.
Frankly, the lollipop did cheer me ups.
I believe you could see me smile the moment you pass it to me..
Thanks girl. :)

13 Dec 2009

2009-12-13T10:41:00.001-08:00

Congratulation to Ronald & Apple
May the both of you have a blissful marriage. :)

Mr Boon, MC of the day :)

Wedding dinner ended @ 1.30pm
and, headed home straight.

Was supposed to meet Kok Wei @ Amoy Street
but i don't have the urge to drink at all so i gave it a miss.

Final Decision: Nua at homeeeeee -.-"
Result: There goes my long weekends. :(

11 Dec 2009

2009-12-11T17:36:00.001-08:00

WOOOHOOOOO~

I'm so in love with this LongChamp tote bag!
But i want it in RED colour instead. :D

Added in my Xmas Wishlist!
Anyone?!
Hehheh, I know i'm dreaming la.. ;p

10 Dec 2009

2009-12-10T17:37:00.000-08:00

Bugis for a walk,
Mount Faber for dinner with Bear. :)

It's been years since we last went out together..
A long catch up indeed!

I'm falling in love with Mount Faber!
It's so damn relaxing la. ;p

08 Dec 2009

2009-12-08T17:37:00.000-08:00

BusyBusyBusy..

Back to work.
Update soooonnnn, :)

07 Dec 2009

2009-12-07T17:45:00.001-08:00

BOOOOOOO~
I'm back homeeeee! :D

Met Peiwen at Marina Square right after my work for a walk
anddd, settle our dinner at Suntec City instead.

Was rather contented today as i've bought the diamond ring
that i wanted @ SooKee Jewellery today.
Hehheh, Statisfied! :)

I guess you guys can see how haggard i am in the photos?
I hardly sleep for 8hours in 3days? -.-"

05 Dec 2009

2009-12-05T19:49:00.000-08:00

JunChao's Farewell Party

Headed down to Resort Thai Disco @ East Coast Park
for JunChao's Farewell Party as he's leaving Singapore tomorrow evening.
The saddest thing is, he won't be coming back to Singapore anymore..

Hopefully, he'll get used to everything back in China. :)

Headed down to Yishun Dam for a little while after the party
anddddd, Home Sweet Homeeeee.

SideTrack: I'm tired but i couldn't get to sleep -.-"
Somehow, my body couldn't take it anymore..
It's aching like hell! :(

04 Dec 2009

2009-12-04T16:00:00.001-08:00

Chill out session @ Punggol End
then headed down to East Coast Park. :)

It's indeed an relaxing night
anddddd, i'm loving it!

Home Sweet Home @ 5.15am
&& it's camwhoring time! :D

Counting down to another 2hrs before heading to work!
I'm still feeling so awake without a wink of rest.
Well done uh!

02 Dec 2009

2009-12-02T05:47:00.000-08:00

Chill Out @ Bliss :)

Kok Wei's finally out from DB and he insisted that i must meet him yesterday.
Out of no where, we ended up chilling at Bliss.
LOL!

Afterall, it's rather relaxing over there
&& Thumbs up for the Fish&Chips. :)

Shit, time to go on diet! :(
I hate it..

30 Nov 2009

2009-11-30T07:19:00.001-08:00

Steamboat@ Bugis

Oh my, should i get myself a diamond ring or a LV bag?
I can't make up my mindddddd! :(

27 Nov 2009

2009-11-27T14:02:00.000-08:00

We can't gain if we can't let go.

There's no love without tears,
there's no happiness without sacrifice,
and there's no forever without goodbyes..

26 Nov 2009

2009-11-26T21:14:00.000-08:00

Bad Hair Day + Eye Infection! :(

Headed home straight after work
then headed down to Bq for a short drink.

It's been quite some time since i went there
and it seems to change so much so much..
It's no longer as crowded as how it used to be in the past uh..

My eyes couldn't stand it
soooo i'm back home right now! :(

25 Nov 2009

2009-11-25T15:50:00.001-08:00

Met Peiwen at Town for a walk after my work. :)
I'm soooo in loveeee with the LV cae outside Takashimaya!!

Home Sweet Home @ 10.30pm :)

24 Nov 2009

2009-11-24T05:21:00.001-08:00

Nightmare..

I'm feeling so restless recently.
The significant one has been haunting me these few days
and it does really makes me feel very uneasy..

Sometimes i do feel regretful for the decision i've made
but on the other hand,
it might be even worst if i didn't made that decision
as i'll be handling it alone right now.
The path ahead would be even tough than what i'm going through right now, isn't it?

I hate turning in early nowadays.
I'm so afraid of that same nightmare..
Sighs*

22 Nov 2009

2009-11-22T16:21:00.000-08:00

Shit!
I spend my off day by sleeping at home last night. :(
Thus someone has been complaining that i fly his plane for 2days.
HA!
Sorry but i didn't mean it la.

Woke up in the afternoon,
headed down to AMK to get my nails done since i've got so much time
and Home Sweet Home!

My life's getting meaningless :(

21 Nov 2009

2009-11-21T16:00:00.000-08:00

BOOOO~ ;p

My first christmas present received!

I found these vouchers while clearing up all the renewals on my table
&& it was being left by my boss. :)
I thought he misplace it so i return it back to him
and he told me that it was meant to be a surprise for me.
HA!

It's still November yet i've already received my first Xmas present.
Anymore surprises?! :X

20 Nov 2009

2009-11-19T07:36:00.000-08:00

Cherish?!

Town for a walk after my work
then headed down to Tras Street for a short drink. :)

Home Sweet Home @ nearly 1am as i gotta work the next day
and i'm heading to bed right now!

To A:
Isn't this the answer you're asking for 2years ago? Then why are you holding me back right now? Isn't it too late? After all these years, you've never changed at all. You love to comes and goes as and when you like. But i hope you would respect my decision this time round..

19 Nov 2009

2009-11-19T07:18:00.001-08:00

I had a nightmare last night
but i couldn't remember what was it about.
All i could remember was my heart aches and it really hurts alot..
Sighs*

Somehow, it reminds me of this song:

Lastly, I'm feeling so so so moodyyyyy :(

18 Nov 2009

2009-11-17T06:43:00.003-08:00

I can no longer feel my importance in you..

To be frank, i've never gone through such a tough path before.
It's something that i've never encounter in my life
and it's really tough to go through everything all by myself.

It's true that i was once utterly disappointed
but i've never blame you before..

***

P.S: Happy Birthday To You

15 Nov 2009

2009-11-15T23:53:00.000-08:00

Compromising is a two way street.
What appears on the surface may not be what it seems to be.

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

I agreed that simplicity is bliss.
Yet the easiest it seen to be, the tougher it is to get.
Like, a simple true love..

14 Nov 2009

2009-11-14T22:11:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO FABIAN! :)

Then headed down to Monaliza located @ Boat Quay for 2nd round of drink. :)

Kok Wei got drunk instead of the birthday boy. -.-"

Home Sweet Home @ 6.20am

13 Nov 2009

2009-11-13T16:55:00.000-08:00

FCUKFUCKFCUK!
I'M SO PISSED OFF LA!

My phone needs a doctor badly!
It went crazy all of a sudden when i'm in the office.
I'm unable to receive any text messages or even pick up a phone call right now!
SadSadSad! :(

Back to topic.

JB trip was cancelled as i couldn't renew my passport on time.
Thus, my boss decided to have our dinner @ Link Hotel for Japanese Buffet. :)
Headed down to Atlantis after my dinner for birthday celebration.

Guess what?!
19 bottles of Martell is being placed on the table!
&& everyone's already either super high or drunk when i reached la. -.-"

Thus, i've become one of their victim too.
I've been drinking like mad when i just reached there
BUT it wasn't my birthday celebration at all! :(

Peiwen & the birthday boy

Alan & his pretty wife. :)

Me & QiuMing :)

Didn't expect that i'll get to see him there.
HA!
&& he's one of the cause that make me drink so much la! :(

P/S: Why do i feel so shitty when i got drunk? :(

12 Nov 2009

2009-11-12T15:58:00.000-08:00

DBL O :)

It's been quite some time since i went to club.
&& it did turn out well last night.

FUN is all i could describe! :D

First round

Second round..

Third round...

Seriously, i've lost count of it.
I couldn't remember how many jug of housepours and shots we ordered.
It's like never ending.. -.-"

Before the war started,
It's camwhoring timeeeeeeeee! :)

WeiQiang trying to get attention in the photo.
HA!

BFF! (Thumbs up!)

10 Nov 2009

2009-11-10T16:11:00.001-08:00

Relaxing night :)

It's really time to sorts out my thinkings..

07 Nov 2009

2009-11-07T21:13:00.001-08:00

I thought i would have you to spend the night with me today
but why does things always turn out to be the other way round
when i've been pending it for days or to be exact it's actually a week?

It was supposed to be a wonderful night
yet it turns out that i'm all alone at the shopping mall aimlessly.
I don't know where to go or who could i turn to.
I'm so lost that tears actually roll down of my cheek.

I could feel the pain in me
& on the other hand, i'm utterly disappointed.
My heart sank.

I thought you would still turn up despites all the unpleasant things i've said
cos i trusted you that you won't leave me alone outside
but i'm really wrong this time round.

Despites hearing those sweet talk coming out from your mouth,
you actually turn yr back on me.
I couldn't control my emotions at that time at all.

We've been going through countless of arguements & setbacks
but why can't we make it through this time?
I thought our love was strong enough to go through everything that we've encounter?

I'm indeed upset & unhappy
yet i've got to pretend that nothing happen right in front of my friends.
I hate to cry/tear in front of my friends.
I tried being strong but they could still feel the unhappiness in me.

I felt that i'm such a failure at that moment.
I tried my very best yet this is all i've got at the end of the day.
Am i being too naive or?

Thanks for being by my side when i needed you guys the most.

03 Nov 2009

2009-11-03T21:20:00.000-08:00

NeverEndingWork..

It's just the second day of the week yet i hardly could breath right now.
Sometimes i feel so stressed up at work yet i don't know who could i turn to.
Sighs*

Been wanting to talk to Baby about it but he's forever busy with his stuffs.
The longest that we've chat for the day was like 15mins only?
&& Phone calls & text messages are getting lesser and lesser. :(

02 Nov 2009

2009-11-02T21:19:00.000-08:00

Oh my, it's another start of the week.
Times passes really fast & there goes my off days..

At the very least,
I'm feeling better despites getting so emotional last night.
&& I do really hope that things would turn out well yay? :)

I'm getting my butt off the chair right now
before i'm late for my work! ;p

01 Nov 2009

2009-11-01T05:24:00.000-08:00

Heartaches :(

It was supposed to be a memorial day
but it got wasted right from the start.

I'm utterly disappointed today but i bet you can't feel it at all.
You might think i'm kinda used to it already
but you never know how i feel cos you've never understand me right from the start.

I've always kept to myself all the unhappiness that i have
and i've never complained a single word about how bored i am even if i felt that way.
We can never be alone or not being disturbed by others for a single day.

All the things that you know are what you thought.
Have you ever asked how i feel?

You might be thinking that i'm making a fuss out of nothing
but all these little things does make a difference in everything.
At the very least, it shows how much i meant to you.

We're drifting further apart while walking down this path.
Neither do i understand what you're thinking nor what you're doing some times.

I've been asking myself times and times again,
Was it a wrong move right from the very start or ...?
Seriously, i don't know.

I've been praying hard that things would turn out well
or even better then yesterday everyday
but it seems like i'm being just too navie.

But what's holding me back?

31 Oct 2009

2009-10-31T02:47:00.001-07:00

Halloween Night :)

Cine for a few rounds of billard
then headed down to Ratchada, Atlantis & last stop at Club Nana.
It was kinda a fun night though. :)

Getting to see everyone working in the club to wear all kinds of costumes
and some of them got drawn like a clown or scar on their face with liquid eyeliner.

No pictures for the night except for..

Mr Tan & Chatree

Jon

Cabbed down to Geylang for dinner after Club Nana
and Home Sweet Home. :)

It's such a sweet weekend by having you by my side at the end of the day. :)

29 Oct 2009

2009-10-29T16:58:00.001-07:00

Struggling..

Workload getting heavier
and i'm struggling hard to cope with it.
Files & paperwork are piling up on my desk as time goes by!

Been working overtime these few days
yet it seems like a never-ending work. :(
Sighs*

On the other hand,
The more busier i am, the least i'll think of those unnecessary stuffs.

P/S: Attention is all that i ask for

27 Oct 2009

2009-10-27T06:05:00.000-07:00

Dinner @ Kovan with Peiwen
then went over to MacDonald's for dessert. :)

Been craving for MacDonald's ice-cream for a week out of a sudden
but i didn't get the chance to eat it at all.
I'm always VERY full after my meals.

Chill for a short while before heading home. :)
It was a nice catch up anyway!

P/S: Why can't you feel/see that i'm unhappy while others can?

26 Oct 2009

2009-10-25T17:12:00.003-07:00

MondayBlues *

Insomnia is back again. -.-"
BOOO!

I'm heading to work!

P/S: Hopefully things will get better. :)

25 Oct 2009

2009-10-25T17:12:00.001-07:00

Headed down to Singapore Expo for the Electronics Fair
but nothing caught my eyes.
Was intending to get myself a new Digital Camera yet it's OutOfStock. :(

Cabbed down to Bugis for steamboat yet it wasn't a good one
& headed home straight after that.

P/S: Somehow, words have lost their meaning right now.